The Past and Present

by Ming
(Cavite, OPhilippines)

Everything about my past has driven me crazy continuously until now. It seems like it haunts me all these years. Maybe the reason for this is that I am not fully satisfied with my life right now.

As a child I had simple joys, give me a piece of lollipop and it would keep me smiling the whole day. As a teenager, I never demanded for any material things. I just wanted to be loved and noticed. I only dreamed of fulfilling my parent's dreams for me. I had many suitors back then but I loved only one. Now, I got married to him at a young age. I now have a child and a lazy husband.

I have to worry about everything, from the financial to personal problem. And all those people from the past just keep on coming back. It makes me think that life was better back then, when I had simple worries and simple dreams.

And what frustrates me the most is that I am not the only one affected but also my parents. My father couldn't even stop working on a blue collar job abroad at his age because he worries a lot about me instead of him being worry free.


Some said that to be living by the past is to be stuck in a situation where you could have no growth and accomplishments. But for me, I'd rather be in the time machine and get stranded on those years of happiness than drive myself crazy over again.